192 days...

Yes...it's been 192 days or 6 months...more or less...since i met her for the very first time...

and there's no turning back...

I've been thinking about her everyday...every hour...every minute...every seconds...

Always looking forward to her in the office...always checking on her updates & photos...

I can't stop 

and i can't tell why... 

It feels like i've addicted to it like addicting to drugs...

Everything feels like a part of daily routine... 

I gotta admit...I've never done the same quite like this before...

At least not for that long period of time...not for that consistency...

Now...can i "survive" or "adapt" to the life without her?

Will the office look the same to me without her silhouette? 

Will the atmosphere be the same without her voice & her laugh?

I'm pretty sure i will eventually pull this through...but how long is it gonna take?

Another 6 months?

Or maybe more?

Right now,my body is contradicting itself...

Feels like my right brain me to forget & let go but my heart says otherwise...

I always think that it'll be easier to forget if i don't see her for a while or not checking on her updates...

But i always do the exact opposite...

Always looking forward to meeting her...though it'll take more than a miracle for that to happen...

Always checking on her updates...

Yes...i'll get over this...but it'll take a long long long time...==