How's it goin'?

1st post in 2014...well....actually i don't have many things to say...O.O

I just don't wanna abandon my blog...again...XD

Has just been promoted recently...well it's not official yet and i still yet to finish the probation...

Of coz the management has the right to withdraw my promotion if my performance is not up to their expectation...

But still i don't see any difference before & after promotion...apart from getting more emails & the figures that the company transfers to my account at the end of the month are slighly higher...

Does it mean that i am not doing my job well? 

There is another staff in my team who's also undergoing probation of becoming a team leader and i can see that he's doing very well...T.T

Maybe it's time to work harder...fix my communication skills...talk more...MORE...that's what my assistant manager told me when she informed me on the decision on promoting me...

She said i have all the right ingredient to be a team leader (as if...O_O)...except for one...

COMMUNICATION...

I've got to communicate more...with my team members, my boss & my colleagues...

Ok...i will talk more...let's show the world the my trash talking skills...ROFL

And both my assistant manager & supervisor said that i performed very very well last year during my appraisal interview...

The way that they talked was like i'm the smartest man on the planet... =.=

I seriously don't think so as i don't think i have done much in the company last year...LOL

Also, i taught that it was just to keep me in the company as there were quite a number of staff in my team left last year...LOL...

Maybe i think too much...O.O

My promotion also stopped my thoughts (or maybe just postponing?!) of changing another job as i was thinking of switching jobs cuz i was really tired of what i was doing in the company...I felt like i was wasting my time in the office doing very little thing...

But at least i have a new post, new challenges & more things to learn now in the company...

Who knows...maybe i will stay there for a good 2-3 years before leaving...LOL

Without me realising it, CNY is just around the corner and i have 3 days off for this year...which is very good considering i've been through the brutal days where i had to work on CNY just a few years ago...T.T

Also, I don't plan to take extra leave this year(almost all chinese staff in my company takes extra leave) cuz i am saving my leaves for my travel plans :P

I plan to go back the same place that i went alone last year as the trip last year was very short, very rushly planned and i noticed that i have missed so many things...so i plan to spend a week over there this year :P

But...seeing the news headlines recently kinda making reconsider my decision...should i or should i not?

Hmm...let's see how it goes...

Nervewrecking?

Am i going through a life & death situation?

I dunno...

Somewhat...it just doesn't feel right...

What should i do?

Should i wait?

Wait for 2moro & hope that everything will turn out alright...

Or should i take any action?

Or am i too scared of knowing the truth?

What should i do? 

This feeling is killing me...

 literally...

Really hope that someone will pull myself out of this...

Today

Today...i heard the same song twice that reminds me of her...

Reminds me of the day she left...

I thought i was so over her...but...i was wrong...

Also,i found out that my favourite badminton session might end as well...==

Which kindda reminds me of her as i started to play frequently on "THE MOST IMPORTANT DAY OF HER LIFE"...

Is that an indication?

But i thought it was over a long time ago...

==

Travelling alone

Just came back yesterday...was very tired as i practically did not sleep at all on the previous night...

Had a good sleep last night but still tired in the morning...even when i am driving on the highway...

There were couple of times where i was driving at nearly 100km/h and my eye lid was completely closed...

And only to be awaken by the sound of the engine picking up speed as i was also "accidentally" stepping on the pedal at the same time...==

Definitely a miracle as my car and i went home in one piece...

For the last few days, i been to a place that i never went before and not familiar with

I don't speak the language, do not know much about the customs there and i definitely don't know anyone there...which also means that i'm completely alone...especially when i'm having trouble and needs help...

And it didn't have a good start...1st i was almost conned by some guy who wanted to take me on the taxi for a staggeringly high price...good thing that i read some articles on the place before going there and i expected that to happen...

But still the inevitable happened...i was conned by the taxi driver who didn't charge me according to meter like he was supposed to...but luckily i found out later that he only charged me at a price slightly higher than the normal price...

Next,i wasn't quite sure if i was conned though...i bought a SIM card at a price much higher than the price i saw on some forums...not quite sure about that though...==

Then,i planned to visit a place on the 1st day but it was closed as it was very late already...==

What a rought 1st day i had...

but luckily everything turned out quite well on the next few days and everything was quite good overall...

I also met a guy from China who was my dorm mate...we had a pretty good conversation as we speak the same language and he was travelling around Malaysia before that...also mainly because he was quite curious why i could speak Mandarin so well that he thought i was from China as well...==

We share a lot of things on our respective countries and our passion for travelling as well...

I didn't expect to make new friends there but eventually i got one...lol...

Maybe sometimes we just have to let things flow naturally and let it be...

Just like all the researches that i did on food...i didn't use that in the end as i was too lazy to refer to it and i decided to play it by my heart...just try anything that looks good without referring to my "notes"...and i did have some pretty delicious food as well...

Maybe that's the beauty of travelling...expect the unexpected?

斷了的弦

是的...那弦已斷了...永遠也接不回了...

既然妳選擇把它切斷,我也不必再把它接回...

謝謝妳給我那麼多美好的回憶...也謝謝妳給我那些痛苦的回憶...

感謝主,讓我茫茫人海中遇見了妳...

曾經,每當提起妳時,我無法掩飾心中的雀躍...

我總留意妳的一舉一動...

妳傷心,煩惱,受傷時, 我總是牽腸掛肚...

現在這一刻起,以上的一切一切不會再發生在我身上...

對不起,是我自作多情...

對不起,是我想太多... 

對不起,是我犯賤...

妳的暗號我已經收到...我知道該怎麼做...

雖然我可能會想妳,但我會好好過...

沒有妳在我的世界我可以過的更好...

但願我能找到比妳更好的...

妳要加油喔!

Grow up...

Planned to do my research for my upcoming trip now but something has bothered me & i don't feel like doing it at all...

Impulsive...yes i am...

Just like making the decision to go to travel to a place...

It was just a feeling that i should go there...regardless the price of flight tickets,hotels, weather and so on...

Even if i have to travel alone...for the 1st time...

Right now i'm not sure if i've made the right decision...

But there's 1st time for everything right? 

Travelling alone to a place that i've never been before...

To a place where the people doesn't speak the same language as me...

To a place that i know very little about...

To a place full of signs that i do not understand...

To a notoriously knows for being a huslte & bustle place...

To a infamous tourist trap...

It is also the 1st time for me to do some in depth research about that place...

History...

How to go...

Where to go...

What to eat & buy...

Things might not go according to my plan but at least i feel secure by doing that...

I did not tell anyone about my trip...except for my parents...but they too didn't know that i will be travelling alone...

I do not know why i've chosen to do so but at least i have to try...

Try to experience new things...

Just like my Taiwan trip...many questioned the decision to go there during July...

It's going to be HOT!!!It's summer there... 

U're not afraid of typhoon?

Blah blah blah...

Yes...

It was indeed hot...

Yes...

There was indeed typhoon...a very serious one...

So what?

I made it home in one piece...

The itinerary was not badly affected as my friends and i thought it would be initially...

As we were very worried that we couldn't go to the places that we planned to go...

But in the end everything turned out all right...

Only a small part is affected...which gives a good excuse to go there again in the future :P

Now i also know how typhoons feels like...since there's no typhoon in Malaysia...

Strong winds...heavy rains...

Trees falling...signboard being blown away...even the traffic lights & motorcycles had to make way for the strong winds...

It was somewhat a good experience i think...

It's time to step out from my comfort zone... 

It's time to learn new things...

It's time to...

Grow up...

Go back to school...?

Been chatting with one of my frens recently and found out that she decided to study master after working for roughly a year...

I was really shocked with her decision...

I am aware that she was really stress in her previous job but i never expected her to go back to school again...

It's hard to imagine how happy she was when she started her previous job as she always told me how motivated she was in her previous company...

But something happned in between and she was really stressed out...

Anyway she's always been a straight A student and maybe it's a wise decision for her...

Will i ever go back to school to study master?

The answer is definitely...NO!!!

Never ever...

At least for now...

So sick of studying...
 
And i actually prefer my life right now...

At least i am still hanging on with my job right now...

At least the stress is still bearable...

At least i can earn my own money & have more say when it omes to money spending...

Maybe i feel insecure if i just keep spending money without "replenishing" by earning more...==

And i don't have to rely on my folks too much financially...

And i'm practically learning new things everyday...

Learning useful skills & knowledge...

Not just reading a bunch of useless notes & presentation slides...

Not just doing research on something i don't think it's necessary at all..

I still think that studying master is a waste of money & time

Even if i take part time master course, does it make that much difference?

I beg to differ..

Except if one day i suddenly decide to be a lecturer instead...== 

I still think that experience is more important...especially in tourism...

Maybe i'm wrong...

Maybe i will regret this one day in the future...

But for now, i think that i have made the right call... 

Did i?