Wednesday, July 24, 2013

斷了的弦

是的...那弦已斷了...永遠也接不回了...

既然妳選擇把它切斷,我也不必再把它接回...

謝謝妳給我那麼多美好的回憶...也謝謝妳給我那些痛苦的回憶...

感謝主,讓我茫茫人海中遇見了妳...

曾經,每當提起妳時,我無法掩飾心中的雀躍...

我總留意妳的一舉一動...

妳傷心,煩惱,受傷時, 我總是牽腸掛肚...

現在這一刻起,以上的一切一切不會再發生在我身上...

對不起,是我自作多情...

對不起,是我想太多... 

對不起,是我犯賤...

妳的暗號我已經收到...我知道該怎麼做...

雖然我可能會想妳,但我會好好過...

沒有妳在我的世界我可以過的更好...

但願我能找到比妳更好的...

妳要加油喔!

Grow up...

Planned to do my research for my upcoming trip now but something has bothered me & i don't feel like doing it at all...

Impulsive...yes i am...

Just like making the decision to go to travel to a place...

It was just a feeling that i should go there...regardless the price of flight tickets,hotels, weather and so on...

Even if i have to travel alone...for the 1st time...

Right now i'm not sure if i've made the right decision...

But there's 1st time for everything right? 

Travelling alone to a place that i've never been before...

To a place where the people doesn't speak the same language as me...

To a place that i know very little about...

To a place full of signs that i do not understand...

To a notoriously knows for being a huslte & bustle place...

To a infamous tourist trap...

It is also the 1st time for me to do some in depth research about that place...

History...

How to go...

Where to go...

What to eat & buy...

Things might not go according to my plan but at least i feel secure by doing that...

I did not tell anyone about my trip...except for my parents...but they too didn't know that i will be travelling alone...

I do not know why i've chosen to do so but at least i have to try...

Try to experience new things...

Just like my Taiwan trip...many questioned the decision to go there during July...

It's going to be HOT!!!It's summer there... 

U're not afraid of typhoon?

Blah blah blah...

Yes...

It was indeed hot...

Yes...

There was indeed typhoon...a very serious one...

So what?

I made it home in one piece...

The itinerary was not badly affected as my friends and i thought it would be initially...

As we were very worried that we couldn't go to the places that we planned to go...

But in the end everything turned out all right...

Only a small part is affected...which gives a good excuse to go there again in the future :P

Now i also know how typhoons feels like...since there's no typhoon in Malaysia...

Strong winds...heavy rains...

Trees falling...signboard being blown away...even the traffic lights & motorcycles had to make way for the strong winds...

It was somewhat a good experience i think...

It's time to step out from my comfort zone... 

It's time to learn new things...

It's time to...

Grow up...

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Go back to school...?

Been chatting with one of my frens recently and found out that she decided to study master after working for roughly a year...

I was really shocked with her decision...

I am aware that she was really stress in her previous job but i never expected her to go back to school again...

It's hard to imagine how happy she was when she started her previous job as she always told me how motivated she was in her previous company...

But something happned in between and she was really stressed out...

Anyway she's always been a straight A student and maybe it's a wise decision for her...

Will i ever go back to school to study master?

The answer is definitely...NO!!!

Never ever...

At least for now...

So sick of studying...
 
And i actually prefer my life right now...

At least i am still hanging on with my job right now...

At least the stress is still bearable...

At least i can earn my own money & have more say when it omes to money spending...

Maybe i feel insecure if i just keep spending money without "replenishing" by earning more...==

And i don't have to rely on my folks too much financially...

And i'm practically learning new things everyday...

Learning useful skills & knowledge...

Not just reading a bunch of useless notes & presentation slides...

Not just doing research on something i don't think it's necessary at all..

I still think that studying master is a waste of money & time

Even if i take part time master course, does it make that much difference?

I beg to differ..

Except if one day i suddenly decide to be a lecturer instead...== 

I still think that experience is more important...especially in tourism...

Maybe i'm wrong...

Maybe i will regret this one day in the future...

But for now, i think that i have made the right call... 

Did i?